I wanted to take a journey through the genders, from feminine to supermasculine.
And he decided to get hormones.
Yes, to get closer to the experience of being a woman I took hormones with estrogen and progesterone supported by a testosterone inhibitor, the most aggressive, so that the process would be faster.
What did you experience?
The testosterone inhibitor totally cut off my libido, self-esteem, and desire to live. I don't want to draw an analogy between becoming feminized and becoming depressed, but there was a time when I felt deeply alone.
Did it mimic the menstrual cycle?
Yes, I took estrogen on certain days and progesterone on other days; During the progesterone days she had a very different decision-making ability. But it's my experience with drugs, I don't claim this to be true for biological women.
Did you carry out this action under medical supervision?
Yes, they accompanied me throughout this entire process. There is a part of the feminizing experience, a change in sensitivity and relationships, that I long for.
Curious.
It wouldn't be bad for men to do this process, because you'll never make a sexist joke about women being hysterical or unstable again. It was a very pedagogical process.
And what surprised you?
The feeling that we are hostages to hormones.
Any new perspective on the world?
How difficult it is to realize what is biological, what is social, what is learned, what is symbolic. Now, without taking any type of hormone, I still don't feel especially like a man or a woman, even though I use the masculine pronoun. I wish men were more feminine.
Because it says?
We are at a crossroads where masculinity has become very dominant and violent. It is incredible the number of men who have written to me after sharing my experience thanking me.
What they say?
That they do not have models of masculinity that serve them, such as feminist men, because feminism is inseparable from the search for equality, justice, non-aggression, and listening.
Then he decided to be a super macho.
I gave my body more testosterone than it produces naturally and I became an unbearable being, I smelled a lot of sweat, I only thought about having sex, I went back to being the 13 or 14 year old teenager totally governed by his sexual desire.
What have you understood from this experience?
I have become more attentive to what makes each person unique. There is no need to prejudge, we tend to be broader.
She recounts her experiences in Hannah's Diaries. How has it been received?
We thought that the book would appeal to a certain LGTBI audience, but it has completely gone beyond that area, there are many parents who write to me because they want to understand their children's search for identity.
And what does he tell them?
My story is a story of searching and not getting caught up in a label, not being in a hurry to identify or make transformations that may be irreversible. There are as many labels as there are people, and each one must take enough time to write their story. Better that than collecting labels that are out there like in a shop window.
But people look for labels.
Labels have an expiration date, but if there is a wage gap it is necessary to talk about women, and if there is discrimination against people who have relationships with people of the same sex, it is necessary to handle the label of homosexual until the discrimination ends.
I understand.
Ideally, labels would not be needed, because that would be an indicator that a form of inequality has already been overcome.
Everyone is who they are.
Rather than giving the boy or girl a series of labels to choose from, it is better to give them a blank sheet of paper and let them express themselves.
Sex changes are being made at an increasingly younger age.
Parents have to accompany them in their search by being a listening reference, because, if not, their children end up influenced by bad references.
There is a current that justifies the discomfort of adolescence with a discomfort with one's own sex.
The problem is not in the possibility of moving through the genre, but in the excess of supply and the speed with which one has to consume whatever it is. A transition is like the great love of your life, you have to wait a few years.
