I shot with the weapon that killed my comrades

Realitystjernen Philip May was 20 years old when he lost two of his comrades in a mortérulykke, and he celebrated his 21st birthday in Afghanistan, where he los

Ann McDonald
Ann McDonald
02 November 2019 Saturday 08:00
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I shot with the weapon that killed my comrades

Realitystjernen Philip May was 20 years old when he lost two of his comrades in a mortérulykke, and he celebrated his 21st birthday in Afghanistan, where he lost three more comrades.

the Trauma has marked him ever since, but only a year ago he was ready to receive traumebehandlinger by Defence psychologists. He told in this week's 'dinner with', and when he visited Ekstra Bladet he opened even more about his experiences in Afghanistan.

- It's not really something I have closed the particular, many people check in, but it was something I felt was time to do because it is something that takes up a big part of me. It is also hard for me to always be happy and be put into the bay. I'll get always get people to smile, ik, and be totally up here, because that is how people know me. It is good also to show a different side once in a while, says Philip May in the video above the article.

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Here he tells how his experiences in Afghanistan have helped to shape his life on good and evil. It does, that he has learned to appreciate the small things in life, but he do also still of efterveerne from being published at such a young age.

- We were trained to get in the war, and it is perhaps a bit of a taboo among 20-year-old boys, what you have up in your head, and if you have it good. It is something you push away, because you must be a man. You have to be big and strong, for now shall you go down in the war, he says, and continues:

- In one way or another, I think, that you make a defense mechanism, and when you do that, get it machined, and then it comes back when you least want it, and then hits it really hard.

Philip May have on your own body experienced what it's like to be in war. Photo: Bjorn Jakobsen/Chronically Group


He lost, as mentioned, two of his comrades in a mortérulykke prior to the broadcast, and it created an anxiety in the today, the 30-year-old Philip Mays body, when he had to perform his job in Afghanistan.

- I was mortér, so I shot with mortér. I shot with the weapon, as I lost two of my comrades. It was also that my stress much went on that I was afraid every time I had to shoot with the weapon, for the last time I saw someone shoot that jumped the crap in the air. It was my stress and task out there: to be the support for the troops, which was out and go patrol.

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Philip May have spent many hours together with Defence psychologists to process his experiences, and he praises the Defense to react quickly, when he was ready to ask for help. He describes life, which issued in the war as a feeling that hits fast and very hard.

I remember the first day we were down there, there we sat in our Piranhas, which is a vehicle, and there was someone from the team before us, which ran on an IED(roadside bomb, red.), where they jumped in the air. So there you sit in a small tank and think: 'Now is the now. Now you are in war and on the run. It is one second, if you are running the wrong' - and so it begins just. It's weird to say, but suddenly it is everyday, that you are being shot at and such a thing, he says.

Updated: 02.11.2019 08:00