"Every day that I do not have Alex in the dinner table. And I can not tell him that I love him. And that I can not tuck him into bed. I really don't get to visit some of the basketball games," he explained. "I am not gont have the ability to instruct him how to push. This season he would be graduating, going to school... it is just very painful."
For the survivors, the consequences are only as fresh.
Lauren Hogg, a freshman at the time of this shooting, lost many friends in the massacre, and has been one of the pupils who set March for Our Lives at the months that followed. Three years later that life-changing Valentine's Day, Hogg pushes daily post-traumatic pressure to struggle for gun reform, while parents such as Schachter are directing their grief into action.
'Each time I wake up I feel it'
In the wake of this rampage in Stoneman Douglas' 1200 construction, returning to college was"total hell," Hogg, now 17, told ABC News.
And folks were so unwell, emotionally unwell, such as myself," she explained. "Stoneman Douglas was this kind of poisonous, poisonous spot after what happened... there were nearly 5,000 students that went through a very traumatizing event and did not get the emotional health resources we had."
"The militarization of our college did not help in any way. If anything, it created the wake of the shooting 10 times longer traumatizing," Hogg said, remembering visiting a school resource officer using the AR-15 on his cool because she ate lunch.
"They believed that made us feel secure, but they were totally erroneous," she explained. "I believe if anything that they simply made it worse, particularly on brown and Black pupils."
The district didn't react to Hogg's allegations straight but known ABC News to announcements about its safety developments and emotional health resources.
The district said it has spent countless dollars in security improvements within the previous 3 decades, such as: enhanced safety and psychological health staffing; updated surveillance camera and intercom systems; enhanced partnerships with law enforcement; added drills and personnel training; proactive threat evaluation and suggestion observation; perimeter gates across every college; and one point of entrance in most colleges.
"Broward County Public Schools continues its dedication to providing health and psychological support to our staff and students for the very day," the district informed ABC News Friday.
The district known ABC News to its March 2019 announcement which cited health efforts such as: five places to get free mental health care; health centers around campus; consultations with different colleges that confronted mass shootings; childhood mental health first aid training, such as suicide prevention; greater than 25 mental health clinicians staffed over the Stoneman Doulgas zone; and placing $8 million toward hiring more counselors, social workers and behaviour experts.
The defendant, former Stoneman Douglas pupil Nikolas Cruz, is still awaiting his trial that was postponed as a result of the pandemic.
Hogg abandoned Stoneman Douglas following the 2018-2019 year. She is currently a high school senior at the Washington, D.C., place.
And that is something I have kind of revived my passion for because I moved from Parkland, since I really am ready to understand where I am now," she explained.
Nevertheless, the post-traumatic pressure is continuing.
"It is a battle I deal with each and every day... it is dreadful," she explained. "Each time that I wake up I feel it. It is frankly just exhausting"
"Channeling that emotion to my advocacy... is the funniest thing I could do," she explained,"because that which we fight for is resistance and love and liberation for everybody."
In 2019, the U.S. experienced 28 busy shooters, described as a gunman"actively participated" in killing or attempting to kill at a populated region, '' the FBI said. Three of those busy shooters were at colleges. In 2018, there have been 27 busy shooters, such as five schools, '' the FBI said.
1 month later Parkland, the 28 survivors who set March for Our Lives had galvanized a motion. Back in March 2018, thousands and thousands of Americans, for example motivated students, worried parents and mad teachers, combined a March for Our Lives rally in Washington, D.C., together with hundreds of satellite rallies throughout the nation.
March for Our Lives subsequently turned its focus to the 2018 midterm election, compelling for youth turnout.
Their mission goes past college shootings -- they would like to finish all gun violence and function to mobilize young people"to struggle for sensible gun violence prevention policies"
March for Our Lives' second aim is pushing the Biden government to deal with gun violence, Hogg said.
I feel just like so long we had been knocking on the door of this Republican-held White House and Senate, only attempting to make them listen," she explained. "Eventually we've got the opportunity to really walk through that doorway "
The Biden effort has promised activities such as : banning the manufacture and sale of assault weapons and high-capacity magazines, and even developing a buy-back app; finishing the internet sale of firearms and ammunition; Shifting gun suicides; and requiring background checks for gun sales and"satisfactorily" financing the background check system.
For Hogg, the largest legislative priority is departure background checks that are universal. She hopes that the era to purchase assault rifles would be increased to 21, though she said she would like to see assault rifles prohibited entirely.
Five years from today, Hogg said she expects March for Our Lives will not need to exist.
"I'd hope the Biden government would put it together and pass on gun legislation so that people are not always dying in the USA from gun violence, if it be in a college or a synagogue or a picture theater or even beyond the home on their road walking into college," she explained.
"More realistically," she explained, in five years she stated she expects to find that the White House including childhood gun advocates from the government, since"we are the ones dealing with those injustices."
Parkland survivors were not the only ones to do it -- grieving parents did, also.
He published a book this past year about his expertise.
This week Safe Schools to get Alex established School Incident Report, Florida's first statewide dash to catalog violent episodes and suspension information.
"I never understood that this type of violent person was going to college together with Alex," Schachter said, speaking to Cruz, the accused gunman. "Schools are not transparent with that kind of information."
"When I understood that the information the nation collected was around the state Department of Education site in only a gigantic excel spreadsheet that has been totally unusable, I wished to provide parents this advice," Schachter said. "Parents will finally have the information that they need to begin a dialog with their school district"
The dash also intends to assist college officials by giving them insight into violence in schools within their own region.
Schachter expects the Florida dashboard is going to be expanded nationally.
With regard to Alex, that had been a talented trombone player in the college marching band, Schachter's nonprofit also conducts a program that offers free, personal, online music courses to middle school band students in low income communities.
"It had been so fantastic for Alex and we would like to provide that chance to as many kids who are being influenced by COVID as you can," Schachter said.
As the three-year markers with no son tactics, Schachter explained,"I am hoping he's looking back on everything I have done for the previous 3 decades and he is proud of me.
